God is writing my story, one day at a time...
6 March 2025, 5 days before my deliverance...
The following experience happened around the time of my deliverance (a long story which I will tell when the time is right). The days and weeks before and after 'the day', were filled with unusual happenstances! I am really glad I started journalling a few months before that, so there is a red A5 notebook in front of me, where I'm reading from.
As with my other stories, I struggle to describe them and find matching superlatives of how it feels like during these experiences... But I really hope the following will help you understand better.... To make my little brain grasp the vastness of what happened, I had to actually ask chatgpt to tell me what are the odds of the following things taking place at the same time in the same room, and the answer was anywhere between 1:330000000 and 1 in 3.3 trillion! If you can come up with a more accurate estimate, I'm all ears! 🙂
So this is what happened...
The previous night during our Wednesday night prayer meeting, I had received a picture, where God held antique style red hot soldering iron and He was pointing it at a person's tongue. I also had a strong sense that the work with heart was happening as a result/at the same time.
The next day I was eager to dive deeper into finding out what that may have meant! I had a strong sense that there was a lot more Holy Spirit wanted to reveal to me through that, so I opened my bible and James 1:26 "...and does not control his tongue but deludes his own heart..." popped open. Now, it's not my usual way of 'digging deeper' but it seemed like the right thing to do at a time...(I don't get hung up on any specific ways to study the Bible, I tend to ask the Lord to guide me how He wants to lead me, instead). As I was reading that verse in James, I felt there was more in it... I continued to be guided by the Holy Spirit. I waited on the Lord for further guidance and the phrase 'read Revelation' kept coming to me, which I was trying to ignore as I don't read Revelation! I DO NOT READ REVELATION! Haven't done so for at least 15 years (to keep this post shorter, I won't go into the details as to why atm). After a while I decided to give in and read it! But where should I start? Not knowing what I was looking for, I continued to follow my inner witness, which nudged me 'start from the beginning'.
As a sidenote: it would have been such an easy thing to do to just pick up my phone and google the answer but I had a strong impression it's not the way I should go right now...
"...When I saw Him, I fell at his feet as though dead..."
And then, nothing could have prepared me for what happened next...
As I was reading Revelation chapter 1, I had a Spotify playlist playing with worship songs, and "recommend similar songs" ticked... I got to the verse 12 and then... the singer in the song started reading out EXACTLY THE SAME VERSES AT THE SAME TIME!!!
Revelation 1:12-17! As I was reading: "... I turned around to see the voice that was speaking to me. And when I turned I saw seven golden lampstands, and among the lampstands was someone like a son of man...."
 The voice in the song read out loud THE SAME THING at THE SAME TIME!!Â
"... I turned around to see the voice that was speaking to me. And when I turned I saw seven golden lampstands, and among the lampstands was someone like a son of man...."
WHAAAAT!!!??? What just happened!! WHAT JUST HAPPENED???? How many songs are there with that particular verse read out loud? What are the chances of me reading Revelation in the first place?! What are the chances of me reading it AT THE SAME TIME!?!?
I mean, seriously....?
I was in another world for a moment... I was so gob smacked for a while I literally didn't know which emotion to give in to! Every part of me just wanted to either jump, scream, cry, laugh, kneel etc. but instead I just froze staring vacantly into space, all of those emotions quietly trapped inside me... That moment was even too big for my emotions to fathom how to respond to!
The song that was randomly playing was "Agnus Dei - Live at Passion 2024"
At 13:46, Kristian Stanfill starts reading the bible at Revelation 1:12, at the exact place I was just reading at THE EXACT TIME I WAS READING IT!!!
Needless to say, that was that - I was no longer interested in the "why" or "how" of the red hot soldiering iron... The LIVING GOD HAD WALKED INTO THE ROOM! He had guided me to this point where impossible became possible, to the point where He even guided me to be open in the way I was approaching how to 'study' this particular subject...
But "why this experience?" I hear people ask when I tell this story.
I asked God the same question, and for me, it was a lesson on "Don't limit God"! He took my limitations and said, just trust me...follow my lead and I will show you that I can work through anything!
What is that thing/area/person in your life that you 'won't touch'? You have chosen to not go there - something or someone may have hurt you, or you simply don't understand something and now you're avoiding it altogether? If we let Him, God can take that difficult (or even impossible) subject and say "let me show you what I can do!". And perhaps that gentle small voice is speaking to you right now, reminding you something or someone - are you ready to let the light shine into that area? Are you willing for God to help you with it?
God is more capable than any of us can fathom, He is just waiting for us to let Him loose on our issues!
Why don't you invite Him right now, to come and intervene?
PRAYER
"Dear Jesus, I decide today to let your light shine into the darkest areas of my life - I invite you to please come and help me with (......). I don't want to limit You any longer - please come and work in me, so that I could become everything You created me for! I surrender my understanding to You. Please come and change my heart so that I could fill the purpose You created me for."
