FREED FROM MIND STRONGHOLD(S)
There is no right place to start this story but perhaps I should begin with a question: why would anyone need deliverance in the first place? I certainly didn't know I needed it...being a Spirit-filled, full-gospel, super active church-going Christian since 1992, I had never even imagined I would need to be delivered from anything…surely, I couldn't be!?
Before I dive into details, I should probably tell you what type of deliverance I will be covering below: mine was to do with mind, recurring thoughts and then feelings stemming from those thoughts. Stuff I lived with for many years, thoughts that followed me around everywhere and caused constant shame in me! I didn’t know I could get rid of them!
My deliverance started weeks (maybe even months!) before the actual day...where strange and unusual occurrences started happening on almost daily basis! One of such amazing experience I have also written about here (this took place 5 days before I got set free).
Every story is DIFFERENT and the way God saw fit to work in me, will be completely unique for each and every person! The important thing is that we SEEK to be free. We all have different stories, addictions, scars, traumas, life experiences etc. and thence also different route to our deliverance. If He could do it for me, He can also do it for you!
- What did I do to get free?
- How exactly did I get free?
- How did I know I needed to be delivered?
What did I do to get free?
Weeks and months leading up to 11 March 2025, (in addition to weird and wonderful happenings) I also experienced an incredible pull to spend time with God! The draw was so powerful, that I felt completely miserable when I ignored it! So I made it my daily priority to find out what He wants from me! Why am I feeling like this!? Something kept 'nagging' in me, like a persistent deep ‘ache’ and I HAD TO to find out WHAT!
Every day as I felt the call to come closer to God, I made room and said 'Here I am Lord!' My maker knows me better than anyone else in this world, so I figured that I can trust Him to see my most ugly parts. I bore my all before God. I wasn't trying to hide anything!
Looking back now, I KNOW that it was THIS DESPEARTE STATE, that allowed God to do deep work in me. I called to Him from the depths of my heart, crying many tears and laying my all at His feet. I responded to His call with my most authentic self, gouging out of the deepest places of my heart...
These were the kind of prayers I prayed (in case you have experienced similar deep ache):
'Lord whatever there might be in me, holding me back from experiencing the best You have for me, please would You take it away! I will give you each and every tiniest corner of my heart! I am not holding anything back - I'm desperate for you to come and take away anything that doesn't belong!! Holy Spirit, please come and purify me from anything that might come between me and my relationship with You.'
How exactly did I get free?
The exact details are getting tiny bit blurry now ~7 months later, but I remember on this particular day, I kept scrolling on Instagram obsessively - it engulfed me! I just kept scrolling aimlessly, almost like trying to find something (subconsciously!), I didn't know what! Then, suddenly, THIS REEL CAME UP! It was a random suggested video by a young guy talking about various spiritual gifts etc. when suddenly I had this sense of 'wow, you have just exposed me!' in a good way. And what followed, was utterly astonishing! This 'thing' was suddenly brought to light so I could SEE IT FOR WHAT IT WAS!!! Darkness was exposed as the light entered! Sometimes, that’s all what’s needed: for God to show His light in the darkness to free us from decades worth of restraints! More and more stuff started to become clear for what they were, and the picture I got next, explains it all:
I saw a figure standing at the top of a hill, overlooking a city at dusk, with a 2" hollow steel rod all the way through their back, grounding them into the earth with it!
I saw a figure standing at the top of a hill, overlooking a city at dusk, with a 2" hollow steel rod running all the way through their back, grounding them into the earth with it!
Immediately I knew that rod was NOT supposed to be there!!! There was absolutely no way I would have been able to remove it myself!
THIS 'STRONGHOLD' STOPPED ME FROM BENDING!!!
That 2" rod represented everything in me that was rebelling, not willing to humble itself!
Wow! It was pulled out supernaturally by the entrance of light - I NEEDED TO BE DELIVERED! PRIDE and critical spirit that didn’t allow me to be wrong! That arrogant rebel just vanished, in an instant! And with it the shame that came with it – I saw that this ultra critical human was NOT ME!!! It was demonic influence on my mind! If it was me, it would still be there, but it left INSTANTLY!
I cannot emphasize enough just how big of a deal this was (and still is!) for me!!!
For someone who grew up with mother, brother and grandmother with the same spirit…my relatives from grandmother’s side also had the same traits - I NOW KNEW it was generational! I had ALWAYS struggled to overcome it and had a lot of shame around it as I always blamed myself for being such an awful critical and condemning person... but it didn't matter how hard I tried to battle against those thoughts and attitudes; they seemed to have come back worse than previous times! It seemed impossible to be just a normal relaxed human being without those constant critical thoughts! So when I got free, I knew I have NOTHING TO BE ASHAMED OF, AS OUR ENEMY WAS FORCING THOSE THOUGHTS INTO MY BRAIN!!!
Demonic strongholds make us believe that’s how ‘bad’ WE are and this is what WE are like!
How did I know I needed to be delivered?
I didn’t! I just wanted God’s best for me, whatever that looks like.
In my notebook, I am just reading these words written the day after, 12 March:
“I AM FREE! It feels AWESOME!!! There is no depressive feeling of having to listen to these thoughts that were holding me back… Enemy comes to steal, kill and destroy! Not to build!”
John 8:32 “Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.”
John 8:32 “…So if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed.”
15 March 2025, from my notebook:
“I am still FREE!!! Not a hint of critical thinking, pride or ‘know-it-all’ – it was CLEARLY demonic, and I shouldn’t be embarrassed sharing it! Many years worth of stronghold has finally collapsed/destroyed/pulled out! I could only do so much as a human in my own power, but it wasn’t enough! WOW, it still feels so AWESOME. I can finally love and see beauty of God in people…I’m still trying to figure out how did God do it!!!? It’s a wonder! It’s a mystery…but I am so grateful!!! Tears are running down my cheeks once again…He is so good, so loving!”
Once I was set free, I saw a picture in my head, very clearly. God was showing me what had been bothering me: I wasn’t able to see ANY beauty around me! It could have been the most beautiful place on earth, infinite fields of flowers surrounded by amazing mountains on a sunny summer day; air filled with fragrance of flowers, but I wasn't able to see/smell/hear any of it because of the thick mass of buzzing around my whole head! The swarm of black large fly-type creatures covering my hole head (including ears, eyes, mouth, nose) covered all my senses!
A girl standing in a middle of a beautiful flower field in between glorious mountains on a summer day, but the head is surrounded by flack swarm of flying fly-like creatures
If there is one thing this whole experience has taught me, it’s this: we recognise demonic fruit by the fact we are trying to hide it, cover it up and KEEP it in the dark and invisible to others! Somehow, we know deep within us if there are things in us which shouldn’t be there (even shame), we know its not good and we are always trying to hide stuff that we can’t be proud about.
I wish there was a way to describe how light I felt right afterwards…people describe freedom like getting rid of tons of weight on their shoulders. Well, this was very similar – there was just this incredible lightness throughout my whole being. NO PRESSURE to do anything, it’s like nobody is ‘driving’ me now like a slave any more: I now have my own free will to either do it or not.
If you see an area in your life where you feel like a slave and you cannot get rid of something – it's is a sure sign this is NOT from the Father of Love!!!
Might you also have a stronghold?
I’d like to encourage you to go through with it as the freedom and happiness that follows is truly worth it! It’s like finding another, much lighter, brighter and happier world which you didn’t know existed!
If this post has helped anybody to get closer to God and to your own freedom, I am CONVINCED that if you bare your all at the feet of Jesus and ask Him from all of your heart to cleanse you from all evil, HE WILL DO IT!
I have also added a little prayer below to help you on your journey…
PRAYER
Dear God: I don’t really know where I’m at on this journey but I would really like to find out if there is anything in me too, that You would like to see gone…something holding me back from being the best version of me that I could be? If there is, then could you please increase my desire to get rid of it. I ask you from all of my heart: would you please work your miracles in me to deliver me from all evil. Amen.
More scriptures to read regarding deliverance: Colossians 1:13; 2 Corinthians 10:4-5; Galatians 1:4; Psalm 91:3; 2 Peter 2:9; Psalm 34:19; Isaiah 10:27; Psalm 34:17; Psalm 50:15
If you would like to investigate the deliverance journey closer, there are a few resources I would highly recommend (I have no association with these people - these have helped me immensely to understand the whole subject of demons and that we do have an enemy who hates us).
Recourses:
- Kathryn Krick, book Unlock your deliverance
- Derek Prince, book They shall expel demons
- Donna Howells, book Devil come out!
